Ars Poetica After an Abnormal Mammogram

But I’ve no spade to follow men like them.

Between my finger and my thumb
The squat pen rests.
I’ll dig with it.

—Seamus Heaney, “Digging”

He couldn’t save her, my great-grandmother,
the surgeon blading breast from its hinge of ribs—
pectoralis major, rectus abdominis. So he
stitched her, cauterized, sheared until

only skin lashed her heart to the world.
Radical mastectomy. Even cut, a woman saves
what she can. Chicago, 1935. If her kitchen
could talk, hot biscuits would perjure

their trick. A jury of olives would spare a man.
Week-old hamburger’s gripe with spice
would end in a kiss. As long as grease from
a day’s labor streaked her husband’s clothes,

his pockets clinked with cash, she’d slip
bowls to her neighbor’s children out of the door.
Winters no one worked, she made sure no child
starved. When it hardened in her breast

like a walnut’s husk, doctors could not cut it
out of her, the tumor or her kindness rooting,
stubborn canna lily, language of her blood.
When my gynecologist called eight millimeters

of asymmetry abnormal density, I believed
the tissue in my breasts was unfurling into letters,
decoding an origin song. When the technician
angled me, X-rayed my flesh with a magician’s

precision, I became one of Duchamp’s nudes,
a glimpse of history. Light’s fractal. And later,
an ultrasound’s sound waves translated
the grammar of my breasts, transducer slick

on my areola, gel the only interlocutor between
my body and what speaks. I have no knife
to follow women like her, my great-grandmother.
I cut with words. I’ll feed a city.


Sara Henning is the author of View from True North, cowinner of the 2017 Crab Orchard Series in Poetry Open Competition Award and the 2019 High Plains Book Award. Her latest collection of poems, Terra Incognita, won the 2021 Hollis Summers Poetry Prize and was released by Ohio University Press in March 2022. Her honors include the Lynda Hull Memorial Poetry Prize, the George Bogin Memorial Award, the Allen Ginsberg Poetry Award, and a Tennessee Williams Scholarship from the Sewanee Writers’ Conference. Her work has been published or is forthcoming in journals such as Quarterly West, Alaska Quarterly Review, Crab Orchard Review, Witness, Crazyhorse, Southern Humanities Review, Meridian, and the Cincinnati Review. She is an Assistant Professor of Creative Writing at Marshall University in Huntington, West Virginia.

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